Belly shot: 30 weeks pregnant

30.2 weeks from LMP. Fundal height is around 31/31.5 cms. No unusual physical complaints or discomforts.

I'm feeling good (aside from the emotional anxiety over the baby's presentation, or rather about the practical ramifications of a non-vertex presentation). I am usually a very calm, level, rational person not prone to worrying about things, and I have to say this pregnancy has been quite a challenge for me in that regard. My last pregnancy was so joyful and peaceful and this one has been one set of worries after another, to the point that I feel it's been stealing away the enjoyment of being pregnant and the anticipation of having another baby. Is it because I'm not doing it unassisted this time around? I know some UCers might suggest that, but I am hesitant to adhere to that simplistic explanation. I would really like to just enjoy the moment but it seems those moments have been all too brief.

I wrote that last part, and then I just got off the phone with my midwife and feel a million times better. I told her all about my recent worries about breech I've written about here and how all of the stuff I know--everything I've told other women when I've been on the other side of the fence--still isn't making it any easier for me. She reassured me that yes, it really is too early to fret about it and that there are a lot of resources and options if, worst case scenario, the baby is persistently breech at term. She's attended a lot of breech births herself, but just not as a primary midwife. There's a great chiropractor who specializes in pregnancy & the Webster technique who I can see if, in a few weeks, baby is still heads-up. The chiro is at least an hour away, so I really hope I won't have to do that--but she's had fantastic success with getting babies to turn. My midwife also says there are a lot of options for breech birth that she knows about--there are one or two physicians who still attend breeches and many more supportive/sympathetic ones that she knows, there's a doctor who is great at doing versions, there's the option of inviting another experienced midwife to come up and assist, or even of traveling down with me to The Farm, etc. In any case, she reassured me that she is totally committed to making sure I'm not having to face a last-minute panicked scramble and that she has a lot of resources that she didn't know about when, four years ago, she had a breech baby and was dropped by her midwives at the last minute.

I'm glad I called. I'm trying hard to open up more and accept help or reassurance when I need it. I'm usually so independent that it's a bit strange to be on the receiving end, and to be okay with feeling vulnerable and letting other people care about me.