Monday, April 13, 2009

Breastmilk for premature babies

Programs like the one at this San Diego NICU, which encourages mothers of premature babies to provide breastmilk rather than formula to their babies, give me hope that we can make positive changes. (Now if only we hadn't started mass formula feeding in the first place...but we can't go back and change that.) Thanks to Mama Knows Breast for the link.


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Sunday, April 12, 2009

Hathor's new baby!

Okay, so now she draws comics at Mama-Is, not Hathor the Cow Goddess anymore. But I still think of her as Hathor....Anyway, she just drew up the birth story of her fourth baby. It's way more fun to have a comic-strip birth story than just written words. Congrats Heather and enjoy your new little one!
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Not staying true to my word…whatever that means

In the past few days a reader posted the following comment:
why are you using a medwife? I was a little disappointed in you for not UCing, and now it's like wow you must not really stay true to your word.
She also emailed me this message:
Are CPM's illegal in your state if not why are you [not] using one? CNM's are really dangerous and I thought every unassisted birther knows this. They are more like medwives which to me would be way too scary. So why are you using one?
I would like to respond to these two comments. I am trying really hard to keep my tone restrained. Believe me, you don’t want to fall on the wrong side of someone who taught university-level rhetoric. So pardon me if I come off a bit strong at times.

Overall, these comments epitomize dogmatism and fanaticism at their worst—blind adherence to a belief system, inability to see beyond a narrow worldview, lack of experience with the messiness and subtleties of real life (or should I say real birth?), a black-and-white perspective in which choices are either absolutely Right or Wrong regardless of context, and gross generalizations.

Now, onto some particulars:

The “medwife” comments
Without having ever met the midwife I am seeing, the poster makes sweeping assumptions about her practice style and philosophy of care, simply because of the initials behind her name. I have worked with and know both direct-entry and nurse-midwives, and I have learned that you cannot assume anything about their style of practice from their educational background. To automatically label any CNM a “medwife” (a term used disparagingly to indicate a midwife who acts more like an OB than a midwife, in other words someone who is very medically/technocratically oriented) is not only insulting to the many CNMs who are very holistically minded, it also functions as a red herring, diverting attention away from important issues. We’re not going to move forward in our effort to improve birth culture and practices if we throw around pejorative terms like these.

For an interesting examination of the ideological conflicts (perceived or real) between DEMs and CNMs, I suggest reading Mainstreaming Midwives: The Politics of Change, edited by Robbie Davis-Floyd. It is true that there is, at times, an ideological divide between DEMs and CNMs. Davis-Floyd includes these two quotes in her introduction:
CNMs think DEMs have copped out, and DEMs think CNMs have sold out.
Joyce Roberts, President of the American College of Nurse-Midwives, 1999

One group needs to tighten up, and the other group needs to lighten up!
Katherine Comancho Carr, President of the American College of Nurse-Midwives, 2005
“I was a little disappointed in you for not UCing
I’m always a bit surprised to hear people tell me this. These comments imply that other birth choices are somehow inferior, less worthy of admiration, or indicative of weakness or lack of principle. If anyone is going to be disappointed in my birth choices, it should be me and me alone. If having an unassisted birth is right for one birth but not for another, then why should anyone be disappointed? Is there some hidden contest I’m supposed to be participating in, some Uber-Alternative-Mama medal I’m supposed to be aiming towards?

Now, this doesn’t mean that I am abandoning unassisted birth in principle or even in practice. To be more precise, my seeing a midwife this pregnancy, or my having an unassisted birth last time, goes no further than myself and my own experiences. I don’t uphold any one path to giving birth as The Only Right Way To Have A Baby. I do believe strongly in undisturbed birth, in supporting and facilitating the physiological and hormonal process whenever possible, and in gentle and empowering births that bring health and healing to mothers and babies. So yes, I do think that our national cesarean rate is atrocious, that far too many mothers and babies come out wounded and shell-shocked from their births, and that we have a lot of changes to make in both hospital and home birth culture. But I don’t for a minute believe that UC is more “pure” than having a midwife, which in turn is supposedly “better” than a birth center, which is of course preferable to a CNM-attended hospital birth. And don’t even mention those awful OBs who just want to slice & dice women, who only care about getting home for dinner…

So let’s please get beyond these trite beliefs and assumptions. I understand why some readers might be curious about why I am seeing a midwife this time, and I am more than happy to enter into a dialogue about that. But I am surprised at the inference that my actions during this pregnancy constitute a betrayal (of what? I’m not sure) or that I am “not staying true to my word.” I never remember making a vow to have unassisted births for the rest of my reproductive life. (Now granted, if I felt it was right for each pregnancy, I would gladly do so!) Did I miss something here?

I will be honest and admit that I do have some trepidations about having a midwife present. I think with any birth choice there are unknowns that can bring worry or doubt. During Zari’s pregnancy, I had moments when I wondered if I was really making the right choice, wanting to be sure my personal preferences weren’t getting in the way of what was best for me and the baby. This time around, as I have mentioned in other blog posts, I have wondered how I will be able to balance my need for privacy and autonomy with my desire to have a midwife present for her emergency skills & knowledge. I don’t know if there’s ever a perfect balance to these sometimes conflicting, sometimes converging, needs. Last time, I knew clearly that I needed to do it alone. This time, I feel more strongly the need for additional options and resources, even as I wonder if or how the midwife's presence might alter my ability to labor. Still, I feel good about continuing along the path I have chosen. A lot depends on what happens as labor unfolds—will I call her early? late? will my birth unfold quickly enough that she arrives after the fact? I don’t know—I can only say that I will be closely following the intuitive and spiritual promptings that guided me strongly and clearly during Zari’s birth. If I do that, then there is no room for doubt.

To conclude this post, I wanted to include a recent comment from another reader, Irene, in the hopes that I have answered her questions and concerns adequately. She has identified the core tensions that I, and many other women, experience between privacy, autonomy, and security. After reading my post about working through some conflicted feelings, she wrote:
Hi Rixa, I just breathed a huge sigh of relief. At first your choice in having a midwife this time around alarmed me, I even felt somewhat confused and betrayed as I saw you as such a wonderful spokesperson for UC moms. But as I read this last blog, I realized that pregnancy and birth are so personal and intimate it is so difficult to make the choices we make. I truly hope you have the birth you desire and that your baby is healthy and that you are happy…

For myself, the only reason I would want a midwife around would be for the afterbirth--in case of an emergency situation and to help with the cleanup but the pros are pretty even with the cons as my need for privacy and birthing alone would definitely result in more complications. (I learned that with my first birth too, even having hubby in the room slowed my labor a lot, I really needed to be alone). So I think that for myself, having a midwife around would ease some concerns but ironically open up Pandora's box to a slew of new concerns and perhaps complications that could have otherwise have been avoided.

Thanks so much for your blog. I am sorry that I at first somehow felt betrayed by your desire to have a midwife; I guess you made me second question UC but after reading this blog (I do check your blog but not too frequently so I missed this one at first, stating your reasons for wanting a midwife), I realized just what a tough position you are in. In a way I think you are looking for what we all want—privacy & autonomy, but a midwife would provide the added benefit of security. Ironically, a midwife would also take away some of the privacy and autonomy so really it is such a tough call.

I look forward to reading your birth story.
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Saturday, April 11, 2009

Bucket heater trial run

Last night I tried out my 1000 Watt bucket heater in a 5-gallon pail to see how well it worked as a supplemental water heater. It's advertised to heat 1 gallon of 60-degree water to 130 degrees in 10 minutes. The bucket heater has an automatic shut-off if it's accidentally taken out of the water while still plugged in. It will also cycle on and off once the water level drops below 5 1/2." But if immersed in a full bucket of water, it will eventually bring the water to boiling.
I filled the bucket to within 3" of the top with cold tap water, plugged the heater in, and set a timer. Here's the breakdown for heating a full 5-gallon pail:
  • At 10 minutes, the water was lukewarm
  • At 20 minutes, the water was hot and steaming--hotter than I would like for a bath, but not painful. I could keep my hand in it comfortably.
  • At 30 minutes, the water was so hot that I could only dip my finger in for a second. At this point I unplugged the heater, although it will bring the water to boiling if you leave it in long enough.
The verdict? I don't think I will need to use it, since it takes my 30-gallon water tank just under an hour to reheat. However, it would be a convenient alternative to boiling pots of water on the stove. You can fill the bucket (with the pool's hose) & heat the water right next to the pool. All you need is an electrical outlet.

I don't know if 5-gallon plastic buckets release chemicals when they're filled with hot water. Would a PETE (food-safe) bucket be safer than a regular one you can get at a home improvement store? I don't know, but it certainly wouldn't hurt to use one. You can ask for used frosting buckets at the cake decorating departments in grocery stores. Chinese restaurants often have 5-gallon food-safe pails, originally filled with soy sauce or vegetable oil.

It would be interesting to heat identical volumes of water on a stovetop and in a bucket heater and compare which is faster. If someone ever does that experiment, please let me know!
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Thursday, April 09, 2009

Audre Lorde's "Forever with Child"

Now That I Am Forever with Child
Audre Lorde (1934-1992)

How the days went
while you were blooming within me
I remember____each upon each
the swelling changed planes of my body

and how you first fluttered____then jumped
and I thought it was my heart.

How the days wound down
and the turning of winter
I recall____you
growing heavy
against the wind.
I thought____now her hands
are formed____her hair
has started to curl
now her teeth are done
now she sneezes.

Then the seed opened.
I bore you one morning
just before spring
my head rang like a fiery piston
my legs were towers between which
a new world was passing.

Since then
I can only distinguish
one thread within running hours
you____flowing through selves
toward You.

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Belly cast


My midwife came over today and did a belly cast. Her teenage daughter helped while her boys played outside. I've never done one before. Here's how you do it:
  • Put a drop cloth on the floor
  • Cut plaster casting material into strips
  • Get a large bowl of hot water
  • Rub torso, arms, and shoulders generously with Vaseline
  • Helpers dip plaster strips into hot water and apply them to your belly, working quickly to get it all done before the cast dries and starts to peel off
  • Belly dance a bit to loosen the cast
  • Reinforce any weak or thin areas with more wet plaster strips
  • Support the cast with crumpled newspapers until it's fully dry, usually 48 hours
  • Shower to get the Vaseline and plaster bits off
  • Sand & decorate the cast
I think I'll smooth mine out with plaster and then spray paint it bronze.
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Wednesday, April 08, 2009

La Bassine trial run

I did a test run of my La Bassine birth pool on Monday. It took 90 minutes to fill start to finish; most of that time was waiting for my 30-gallon gas water tank to reheat. Here's the breakdown on filling time:
  • 20 minutes for the first fill until the water turns cool
  • 50 minutes for the water heater to reheat
  • 20 minutes for the second fill
Filling it twice brought the water exactly to the "recommended level" mark on the pool, which I found to be a bit too shallow. The water was definitely too hot after the second fill, so it would have been easy to top-up with cool water without causing the overall temperature to fall too low. In fact, I didn't actually get in the pool for another two hours.

I kept a piece of plastic over the top to retain the heat during and after filling. When I came back later to actually get in, the water was still a bit on the hot side. Five hours after my test swim (and almost 7 hours after I had filled it), the pool still felt at least body temperature, if not warmer. Keeping a cover on the pool when it is not in use really helps maintain the water temperature.

Zari gives her stamp of approval.
She was not happy when we had to get out.

I don't think I will need to use a bucket heater to maintain the water temperature, since the pool retains its heat so well. By time the water cools off, I will have a fresh tank of hot water ready. However, I will still test the bucket heater soon, just in case.

The pool floor was really cushy and comfortable to kneel and sit on. It is also plenty deep, especially if you fill a few inches higher than the marked line. I would prefer the pool to be longer and narrower, though; I'd like to be able to fully stretch out and float without having to bend my hips or knees. Unless you're in a really large pool, such as the bigger Birth Pool in a Box, you're not going to find this long of a birth pool. I guess I was spoiled with the extra-long jacuzzi tub that I had in my last house!

Emptying the pool took 20 minutes. I was very pleased with the pond/fountain pump that I bought recently; it was silent and quite efficient, with a maximum flow rating of 400 gallons/hour. There were just a few cups of water left in the bottom of the pool that the pump couldn't remove; I mopped it up with two bath towels.

Here are a few pictures of my birth room. It's the only room on the upper floor of our house and has a small bathroom attached (full bath with shower, sink, and toilet).
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Tuesday, April 07, 2009

How do I hate thee, insurance company? Let me count the ways

I am this close to divorcing my insurance company. What seemed like a fairly happy relationship has turned ugly. So, 8 1/2 months ago--basically as soon as we accepted this new job--I called to find out more about my maternity benefits since I was newly pregnant. I had already found the name of the CNM I am currently seeing, so I wanted to verify if she was covered, and whether she was in or out of network. Let's be honest--having insurance coverage for a midwife made me a lot more willing to consider that as an option. Of course if I felt that it was right to have a midwife, I would pay for one, insurance or not. But the fact that she was covered did make a huge difference for me.

So I verified last fall with my company that she was covered, although probably only as an out-of-network provider unless I petitioned for an in-network exemption. Since there are no other in-network home birth providers in my area, I hoped this wouldn't be too much trouble. My midwife's biller looked into this and obtained an authorization code for in-network exemption, which she re-verified at least once at a later date. The biller even did a test bill, which was approved and authorized back in November 2008.

So everything looks fine and dandy, right? I have my in-network deductible of $400-odd dollars, then I pay 20% of the remaining charges (compared to 40% for out-of-network). This works out to around $1,000 that I would pay out-of-pocket, perhaps less if they can bill for enough charges. My midwife's global fee is $3,600, although if you have insurance the numbers on the claims will be a bit higher than this.

Today I got a call from the midwife's biller, saying she just heard from my insurance company that the in-network exemption was a mistake and that they would only cover the CNM as out-of-network. Not the end of the world, but I decided to call and inquire about this change. Everyone I talked to said the same thing--the authorization code was a mistake, and that only physicians and specialists can be granted an in-network exemption.

I asked to speak to the person's supervisor to see if anything else could be done at this point. This is where it went downhill. This new person looked into my case and informed me that not only was the out-of-network thing non-negotiable, my CNM would actually not be covered at all by my policy! The specific insurance contract I belong to stipulates that a CNM must:
a) be directly supervised by a physician
b) attend births in a hospital or birth center (I think the wording was "in a health care facility")

Why didn't they tell me this 8 1/2 months ago when I called specifically to verify that she was covered? Why didn't they tell this to my biller when she submitted a claim back in November to verify that the insurance was working properly?

So now my insurance company totally refuses to cover the CNM I am seeing, even though for the past 8 1/2 months I had been assured that she was covered--after all, she is a licensed health care provider in my state. I spent a few hours on the phone talking to two more supervisors & managers and kept being told the same information: the CNM must work in a hospital or birth center, and must be under the direct supervision of a physician. Doesn't matter that they had told me, and my midwife's biller, multiple times that she was covered. Doesn't matter that they had already approved at least one claim from this midwife.

I refused to let them end the conversation. I kept asking if there was anything else I could do to petition this. They said that I could only appeal the claim after the birth. They would certainly deny the claim, and they said there was little to no chance that they would approve my appeal since my policy had those two stipulations written into it.

So after I kept asking who I could talk with to see if there was any hope of getting insurance coverage--keeping in mind that I had been assured all along that I did have coverage for this CNM--I finally got the 3rd or 4th level supervisor to tell me who wrote my policy's contract; she said it would be someone at my husband's college. So I called the college, found the right person, explained my situation: I am 8 1/2 months pregnant, had been told all along that I had coverage, and at the last minute was informed that my CNM would not be covered even though she's a legal, licensed provider in our state, because of certain technicalities written into the insurance contract. I asked her to look into changing the wording of the contract to cover any midwife or physician licensed to attend births, without the clauses mandating place of birth or physician supervision (since those are not required by our state by any means). She said, "oh, I know you--you're Eric's wife!" and seemed quite willing to look into changing the terms of the insurance contract. She said she'd look into it and get back to me tomorrow.

So I hope, hope, hope that this will work. I am glad I was obnoxiously persistent, because it was maddeningly hard to squeeze that bit of information out of the last supervisor.

Can I say it's just a tad stressful to find out, perhaps just a week or so away from giving birth (if I go into labor at 38 weeks like I did last time) that your insurance company suddenly will not cover your health care provider? And that it will not cover any CNM who works independently, despite the fact they they are fully legal and licensed? And that it mandates that I give birth in a hospital or birth center? (And of course there's no birth center in my town, so that's not an option anyway.)
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Robin Lim on cord & placental abnormalities

I received this email forwarded from Robin Lim, a midwife working in a birth center in Indonesia. I never met Robin personally, but she used to work in Iowa as a CPM before returning to Indonesia and trained many of the midwives I knew there. She has seen a dramatic increase recently in cord and placental problems: short cords, velamentous insertions, abnormal placentas, etc. Her email below describes some of the abnormalities she's encountered recently, and she wonders if the Indonesian diet, which is heavy in GMO soy, is somehow connected to this phenomenon. I had a velamentous insertion with Zari, so I'm naturally a bit curious about this. If you are a birth attendant, have you encountered a rise in the frequency of these cord/placental abnormalities?

Dear sister midwives... (and docs) please excuse this group email to friends...

I am writing from Indonesia, the country who got GMO soy first... to share what I am seeing, and ask if you too are seeing the same, and begin a dialog....

In 2008 Bumi Sehat Bali received 573 babies. We saw an increase in retained placentas (we often see hemorrhage). Also I am seeing an increase in velamentous cord insertion. One would expect given the rate of malnourishment here - that the birthing women would use every bit of Qi to push out their babies (and we go so gently) - leaving little or not much Qi for releasing the placenta and involution. However, in 2008 and so far in 2009 we have seen many too many "sticky" placentas, two even had to be transported (we do manual removal on site when absolutely necessary) - but 2 really had to go in, one for a hysterectomy, in another. Dr. Weda Gama nearly took her into surgery... but was able to remove the placenta (over 1 liter blood loss!).

In the last 6 weeks of 2008 I had to go after 4 placentas!!! It was not pretty, and I do not take it lightly (usually never more than 1 per year). Also most shocking is the empirical experience (I have no research to prove it) of seeing an increase of velamentous umbilical cord insertion and short cords.

Two weeks ago we had Padma, a vegetarian for 15 + years... third baby died the week before birth - from what was diagnosed as a cord accident. This 4th baby was born healthy... but the cord was flat and 4 to 5 cm wide (looked like a tape worm) and had five skinny vulnerable vessels arriving each separately to the placenta!!! The placenta was not [like] the lovely placentas I know and love (I am doing a book on placentas - so I am having a love affair with them). There was no Wharton's jelly to speak of, and I am seeing a decrease in Wharton's jelly among all our babies.

Last week a young mom lost her baby in labor... suddenly FHT went from 150 to zero exactly 15 minutes between listening times... there was no dipping or drop in heart tones, but we were concerned as they had gone up to 160 and once above... but easily stabilized with position change
of mother. We had no time to transport before infant demise. Five hours later a lovely baby girl was born dead. There was no hope. This mom is very poor, husband no job. The cord was less than 30 cm long and had been pulled too hard as it was wrapped tightly around her foot.

Yesterday evening we had a 2nd time mom come in, very poor and malnourished. On arrival FHT were above 160, she was 9 cm, but nothing we did to try to stabilize baby worked... and when we got up to 188 and climbing (that is with O2 support! and hands and knees) we transported... stat cesarean, baby was very weak low apgars... but she has come around and
my staff midwife has gotten her out of hospital nursery and onto breast. This baby would not have survived our normal hands-off gentle birth. Saved by O2, a doppler and cesarean - is this the kind of drama the placentas want now????

Cords are shorter. We don't cut them for a minimum of 3 hours at Bumi Sehat and many families choose lotus birth... so we hang out with the cords a long time. Last week our midwife Ayu had to cut a cord after birth of head, as the body would not follow, it was that short a nuchal cord... she had never had to do this before in her life as a midwife!

These are just a few stories... but we are seeing many less dramatic examples of shorter cords, velamentous cord insertion, diminished Wharton's jelly, and strange looking placentas.

This morning Dita having her second baby was stuck at 9 cm (with crazy transient but strong intermittent urge to push) from 7 pm to next morning at 8:30 she finally got complete. After hands and knees with butt up, moxa Kidney 1 and pulsatilla to dis-engage baby from pelvis and then elephant walking stairs to bring him down right.... we had had strange bleeding in first stage, but baby remained strong and stable, mom also was quite well through the long labor - but I was spooked to speed this up in any way... just wanted the cord to stretch gently. 20 minutes before the birth FHT were suddenly absent. Hands and knees, O2 and slowly slowly, he
came back. Now Dita was really urging to get her baby out. He was most stable when she squatted, but this was not our preferred gentle birth... Dita did it (we had not time to transport - I actually considered episiotomy - imagine, and had ready a quiwi to vacuum him out!!!) her
son was born by her own power and all of our prayers to Allah. Allhumdullilah!! our 3.6 kilo Baby boy's cord was short, just about 40 cm. velamentous insertion... AGAIN. Yet another.

Last week we had a five babies in a 12 hour night... two had velamentous cord insertions! It's just not average anymore. In five days time I saw one fatal cord accident, another cord problem leading to stat cesarean birth, and today another incident of deep fetal distress due to cord problems. BTW - none of these three were nuchal cords, just short and velamentous.

What are you midwives seeing? Please send this round to your friends... I am curious. The study I read concerning M16 genetically modified corn showed that when fed to pregnant mice, ALL THE OFFSPRING, in one generation, had alterations of ALL the cells in ALL their organs!!! Can you see why I am worried about our precious placentas? I did not make this connection, until I began to see an increase in abnormalities and pathology due to placenta and cord troubles. The fact that so many Indonesian women depend upon genetically modified soy products (tempe and tofu) for their day to day protein - and the early introduction of GMO soy here - well it got me wondering??

Dr, Hariyasa... Are you seeing an increase in this kind of cord and placenta problem at R.S. Sangla and Harapan Bunda? Some midwives at R.S. Ari Canti say they are seeing more problems. Dr. John... are you seeing more problems like this in Maui? Iowa? England? Australia? East Coast? I HOPE this is not a trend or a pattern. We really don't want GMO foods, or anything, i.e. environmental pollutants etc., to make changes in placentas. It would be shattering.

As I see it we have three combined potential ways in which the placentas are being affected in Indonesia: Malnutrition, Pollution (including Roundup) and GMO soy. We can also add to that economic and emotional stress, which taxes pregnant women's vitamin and mineral stores. Add to that increased cortisol, which Dr. Odent has proven impairs brain development in fetus. I hope I am wrong - that the placentas and umbilical cords are fine and that this is all coincidence. Please give me your input and any similar findings you are seeing.

p.s. yesterday we received a lovely baby girl, the birth was gentle and beautiful, mom did not even have a tear. However, the cord was quite long, but had a 2 cm hematoma very close to the baby; this is yet another rare abnormality.

Om Shanti, Ibu Robin Lim
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Monday, April 06, 2009

Blessingway necklaces

These are two of the necklaces I made this weekend. The top one is made from beads that my guests brought. The bottom necklace was made from other beads that Julie had brought for putting together the Blessingway necklace (we were going to do it when all the guests were there, but we ran out of time). I love the tree of life medallion; it will always remind me of my Blessingway and my henna belly painting.
  • The central clay bead that looks like a baby is from my midwife. It reminded her of some of the worries I had had about a breech baby. She expressed confidence that my baby, like this bead, will stay head-down.
  • The mom, dad, and family beads are from my mom, to remind me of my family.
  • The three matching red swirly beads, two square and one round, are from Julie. She said they reminded her of one of her favorite scriptures and its use of birth symbolism. From Moses 6:59: "and inasmuch as ye were born into the world by water, and blood, and the spirit, which I have made, and so became of dust a living soul, even so ye must be born again into the kingdom of heaven, of water, and of the Spirit, and be cleansed by blood, even the blood of mine Only Begotten."
  • My sister and mom picked out the silver rose. They said it reminded them of a placenta and of a baby's head emerging. And one other thing, too, that I can't remember!
  • The three green swirly beads are from my friend J. The oblong one in particular reminded her of the need to let things flow at birth.
  • The speckled red & white bead is from A., one of the birth assistants. Her son found it years ago.
  • The rough crystal bead is from D., another birth assistant. She has a degree in metalsmithing and looked through her collection of beads to find one that was as un-beadlike as possible. She said it reminds her that birth is not always in our control, yet it is always beautiful in its own way.
  • The two round beads with moons and stars, and the square bead with white flowers, are from a friend A., who is also a colleague of Eric's, due any day now with her first baby.
  • The brown & blue cylindrical bead is from another colleague & friend E. She teaches art history and specializes in African art. The bead is from Africa (can't remember which country at the moment) and is made from recycled glass.
  • The blue-green bead with moons and stars is from my friend K., who is pregnant with her first, due a few weeks after me, and also seeing the same midwife. She picked it to express her hope that I will be able to be well-rested before labor begins. Something I really appreciate!
  • The oblong, twisted bead and the silver footprint charm are from my sister. The first one reminded her of an umbilical cord, and she shared her wish that my placenta will release easily this time.
I also received two other beads. One was interlocking hearts from R., a woman from my church who had a cesarean, then a VBAC, then two home births. She said it reminded her of the fact that when you have a second child, your love grows big enough for both of them. I realized after I had finished the necklace that I forgot to put it on! Oops... The other bead was a beautiful, large handblown glass rectangle from C., another birth assistant. I'm making it into its own necklace.
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LDS blessing rituals for childbirth

Several readers have asked to know more about the blessing rituals that LDS (Mormon) women used to hold as they prepared for childbirth. By time they reached the Great Basin in the late 1840s, LDS women frequently conducted washing, anointing, and blessing ceremonies in each others' homes; most often, this was done for a woman preparing to give birth. The practice lasted for about a century. I have found two articles that delve into the origins and eventual abandonment of these practices:

Linda King Newell. "A Gift Given: A Gift Taken: Washing, Anointing and Blessing the Sick Among Mormon Women." Sunstone Vol. 22 (1999): 30-43.

John Sillito and Constance L. Lieber. "'In Blessing We too Were Blessed': Mormon Women and Spiritual Gifts." Weber Studies Vol. 5.1 (Spring 1988): 61-73.

The modern Blessingway originated around the 1970s, when midwives used the Navajo Blessing Way ritual as inpiration for recreating a meaningful ceremony to honor a pregnant woman's transition into motherhood. Nowadays, secular Blessingways bear little resemblance to the original Navajo ceremonies.

I feel it's important to remember our spiritual and cultural practices that so often go forgotten. Until I came across these articles when I was a PhD student doing research for a history of medicine class, I had no idea that women of my own faith used to hold these kinds of gatherings. Below is an passage from pages 37-38 of the Sunstone article, parts of which I read at my Blessingway. The excerpts come from the minute book of the Oakley Idaho Second Ward Relief Society. Evidently they felt it was important enough to record word for word. As far as I can tell, this was written down around 1909.
The first two blessing follow each other closely with only minor changes in the wording here and there. The blessings were specific and comprehensive.
We anoint your spinal column that you might be strong and healthy no disease fasten upon it no accident belaff [befall] you, your kidneys that they might be active and health and preform [sic] their proper functions, your bladder that it might be strong and protected from accident, your Hips that your system might relax and give way for the birth of your child, your sides that your liver, your lungs, and spleen that they might be strong and preform their proper functions, . . . your breasts that your milk may come freely and you need not be afflicted with sore nipples as many are, your heart that it might be comforted.
They continued by requesting blessings from the Lord on the unborn child's health and expressed the hope that it might not come before its "full time" and that
the child shall present right for birth and that the afterbirth shall come at its proper time . . . and you need not flow to excess. . . . We anoint . . . your thighs that they might be healthy and strong that you might be exempt from cramps and from the bursting of veins. . .
The document combines practical considerations, more common to women's talk over the back fence, with the reassuring solace and compassion of being anointed with the balm of sisterhood. The women sealed the blessing:
Sister ___ we unitedly lay our hands upon you to seal the washing and anointing wherewith you have been washed and anointed for your safe delivery, for the salvation of you and your child and we ask God to let his special blessings to rest upon you, that you might sleep sweet at night that your dreams might be pleasant and that the good spirit might guard and protect you from every evil influence spirit and power that you may go your full time and that every blessing that we have asked God to confer upon you and your offspring may be literally fulfilled that all fear and dread may be taken from you and that you might trust in God. All these blessings we unitedly seal upon you in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.
The tender attention to both the women's psychological and physical state is an example of loving service and gentleness. That this widespread practice continued in similar form for several more decades is illustrated by the account written by a Canadian sister.
In the years from the early 1930s on, in the Calgary Ward R.S. under presidents--Bergeson, Maude Hayes, Lucile Ursenbach, the sisters often asked for a washing and blessing before going into the hospital for an operation or childbirth. In this ordinance two sisters washed the parts of the body, pronouncing appropriate words of prayer and blessing, . . . and at the conclusion put their hands on the head of the recipient and, in the name of the Lord pronounced a further blessing.
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Sunday, April 05, 2009

Henna belly, the day after

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Saturday, April 04, 2009

Belly photos!

Here are a few of the photos Julie took yesterday before the Blessingway. I'd like to do more editing and creative manipulations on Photoshop. I put a sepia cast on one of the photos and faded out the background in another, but that's all so far.

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Blessingway

I spent the morning and afternoon getting the house cleaned and ready for the Blessingway. I went outside and cut just about every daffodil in our yard and put them all around the house. I found these lovely peach and white daffodils on the east side of our house. I never knew they came in that color.
My friend Julie arrived in the afternoon with her 14-month old Joyce. She is a fellow LDS graduate student and home birther who lives about an hour and a half away. She found me via my blog a few months ago, and we started emailing and talking to each other. She's finishing her master's degree and just got accepted into a PhD program and will probably be focusing on some aspect of childbirth. We had arranged to meet in person at least three times before the Blessingway, but one or both of us had had to cancel each time at the last minute. So we saw each other in the flesh for the first time yesterday! It's good that we felt comfortable around each other, because one of the first things I did was strip down to a bikini and ask her to take some belly shots of me. She took some lovely ones, which I'll post soon.

Setting up chairs and chatting.
My friend Julie, turned away from the camera, talking with my midwife and a friend of mine (both of whom are pregnant). Julie on the left and my mom holding Julie's daughter. Zari kept asking to play with her today.
Once we were all sitting down, the guests took turns introducing themselves and describing how they knew me. There were several women I had met at church, some friends who are Eric's collegauges (or faculty spouses), the midwife and her four assistants/apprentices, my mom, my sister from Dayton, and my friend Julie, who organized the event.

Each of us also shared a favorite memory either of our own mothers, or of being a mother. Some were very poignant, some quite funny, others sweet and simple. My story was a recent one. A few weeks ago, Zari and I watched Eric play intermural indoor soccer. The teams were shirts vs. skins, so there were a lot of bare-chested men running around. Zari kept saying something with the phrase "little tiny." I finally turned closer to hear, and this is what she was repeating to me as she was watching the men play soccer: "He has little tiny breasts." I tried not to laugh as I told her, "yes, he does." Then she turned to me, patted my chest, and said, "Mama has big breasts." Best of all was when she pointed to a more...ahem...pudgy man and said very earnestly, "He has big breasts too."
Julie then invited my midwife to give a short thought/devotional. She talked about overcoming fear & pain in childbirth. Each of us spoke about things that had given us fear or anxiety during pregnancy or motherhood.

Next, we took a break to stretch our legs and feast on all of the delicious food my guests had brought. Then it was time to do a henna tattoo!Most everyone took turns drawing this tree of life design on my belly. I was quite impressed. Notice the knot hole on the tree (aka my belly button).
While we were doing this, I had my guests read cards and hold up the quilt squares that my out-of-town friends and family had sent in. If you are one of those who are still working on your squares, this is a friendly reminder to send it to me soon so I can put the quilt together!

To finish the evening, each of the guests presented me with a bead they had brought. Once I get the necklace put together, I'll take a picture and explain some of the symbolism behind the various beads. A fun project for this weekend.

I spoke about some of the blessing ceremonies that Mormon women did over 100 years ago as they prepared for childbirth. Julie concluded the evening by reading Audrey Lorde's poem "Forever With Child."

We were going to do a belly cast after the Blessingway, but my midwife thought that it would be best to wait a few days, since I still had wet henna paint all over my belly. Instead, we did a quick prenatal visit, and I spoke to her assistants about my expectations for their role at the birth. (I won't have all four of them at my birth, of course; it depends on which one is available when I go into labor.) I peeled the dried henna off this morning, and now there's a lovely pale red tree decorating my belly. I hope it lasts until the baby arrives!

Thanks to everyone who participated in my Blessingway. It meant a lot to me to feel your love and support.
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Thursday, April 02, 2009

Preparations

My Blessingway is tomorrow and I've been busy getting things ready. Since it coincides with my 36 week home visit, I cleaned out the upstairs room where I'll most likely be having the baby, set up my La Bassine, and pulled the newborn clothes and diapers out from storage. A friend of mine is planning most of the gathering, so I'm just making a few good things to eat. The one I'm most excited about is a tropical lime torte with mango compote that my mom made for my sister's wedding. I cannot describe how delicious it is, so I advise you to make it yourself and see why I love it so much. My friend is going to come a bit early to take some fun/artistic belly shots. After that, we're doing a bellycast with my midwife's help, and then the fun begins with the actual Blessingway.
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Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Cesarean section and VBAC, yet again

I seem to be on a cesarean section and VBAC kick lately, but there are just so many things to discuss and so many new articles and studies coming out. And with close to 1 in 3 births occurring via c-section in the U.S., these topics are certainly relevant to anyone who is of childbearing age!

First, continuing our discussion of the ethics of refusing to perform elective c-sections, I came across this comment from an Australian physician who argues that that doing an ECS to stave "save the vagina" or "prevent urinary incontinence" is not a valid reason. She argues that an ECS is like a healthy weight woman requesting gastric bypass surgery to prevent future obesity. From the article Caesarean beliefs "misguided" from the Sydney Morning Herald:

WOMEN who choose to have an elective caesarean in the belief that it will prevent incontinence and genital prolapse are "misguided" and may be putting their health, and that of their baby, at unnecessary risk.

That is the view of Jenny King, a urogynaecologist at Westmead Hospital, who questions the right of women to choose surgical births to avoid pelvic floor problems.

Evidence is mounting that repeat caesareans cause harm and there are doubts that they provide the protection they were thought to provide, she said.

Dr King will present the findings of a review of about 9000 births at Westmead Hospital in 2004 at the annual scientific meeting of the Royal Australian and New Zealand College of Obstetricians and Gynaecologists in Auckland on Sunday.

She projected that surgical birth could prevent 35 per cent of urinary incontinence in women under 50, but the method of delivery made minimal difference to pelvic dysfunction later in life.

"Incontinence is an emotional issue, but I looked at the data and you have got more chance of losing a baby from the complications of a caesarean section than getting incontinence problems," she said.

"If a young woman of healthy weight asked a gastric surgeon for lap-band surgery to prevent the possibility of becoming obese later in life, surely no one would agree to that.

"So why does a pregnant woman have the right to surgery she doesn't need?"

Women who have a caesarean are at much greater risk of a ruptured uterus, hysterectomy or infection. And their babies are more likely to be born premature, have serious breathing problems or need intensive care.

Next, an article in the Arizona Republic discussing how C-sections are linked to future birth risks. The article focuses on one worrisome trend due to the rapid rise of c-sections: placenta accreta. Once something that was an obstetrical rarity (1 in 30,000 in the 1950s when the c-section rate was in the low single digits), accreta now is as high as 1 in 2,500 to 1 in 500. The article also stresses the relative safety of VBAC, emphasizing that as many as 90% of women with a previous c-section are candidates for a VBAC.

Studies and textbooks suggest that the risk of developing an accreta is as high as 4 percent in women who have had two previous Cesareans; that jumps to 60 percent with three C-sections, their physicians said.

And while Valley hospitals can't say exactly how many women they are seeing with the complication, those that traditionally deliver the most babies say it's a trend they're watching.

Earlier this year, St. Joseph's saw three women with the condition in one week, Chambliss said.

"In the 1950s, the incidence was something like 1 in 30,000 women," Mills said, adding that newer studies, conducted within the last decade, suggest that the rate has climbed to as high as 1 in 2,500 or even 1 in 500.

"So there is definitely an increase in occurrence," he said. "And in women with C-sections, that's where we've really seen an explosion."

I've posted about this before, but I wanted to remind readers of this recent study about Maternal Morbidity Associated With Multiple Repeat Cesarean Deliveries. Not surprisingly, it found that cesareans become progressively more dangerous for the mother. I bolded the parts relating to placenta accreta. It seems the 60% statistic from the previous article comes from women with two previous c-sections who also have placenta previa. Here's the abstract:
OBJECTIVE: Although repeat cesarean deliveries often are associated with serious morbidity, they account for only a portion of abdominal deliveries and are overlooked when evaluating morbidity. Our objective was to estimate the magnitude of increased maternal morbidity associated with increasing number of cesarean deliveries.

METHODS: Prospective observational cohort of 30,132 women who had cesarean delivery without labor in 19 academic centers over 4 years (1999–2002).

RESULTS: There were 6,201 first (primary), 15,808 second, 6,324 third, 1,452 fourth, 258 fifth, and 89 sixth or more cesarean deliveries. The risks of placenta accreta, cystotomy, bowel injury, ureteral injury, and ileus, the need for postoperative ventilation, intensive care unit admission, hysterectomy, and blood transfusion requiring 4 or more units, and the duration of operative time and hospital stay significantly increased with increasing number of cesarean deliveries. Placenta accreta was present in 15 (0.24%), 49 (0.31%), 36 (0.57%), 31 (2.13%), 6 (2.33%), and 6 (6.74%) women undergoing their first, second, third, fourth, fifth, and sixth or more cesarean deliveries, respectively. Hysterectomy was required in 40 (0.65%) first, 67 (0.42%) second, 57 (0.90%) third, 35 (2.41%) fourth, 9 (3.49%) fifth, and 8 (8.99%) sixth or more cesarean deliveries. In the 723 women with previa, the risk for placenta accreta was 3%, 11%, 40%, 61%, and 67% for first, second, third, fourth, and fifth or more repeat cesarean deliveries, respectively.

CONCLUSION: Because serious maternal morbidity increases progressively with increasing number of cesarean deliveries, the number of intended pregnancies should be considered during counseling regarding elective repeat cesarean operation versus a trial of labor and when debating the merits of elective primary cesarean delivery.
Thanks to Unnecessarean and Birth Faith for the links!
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

New midwifery program in Canada

My mother-in-law just sent me a link to this article, Calgary college plans midwifery degree. There will finally be another four-year midwifery degree program in Canada by as early as 2010! This is much-needed, as there are currently only six midwifery education programs in the entire country. In addition, demand for midwives vastly outnumbers supply, so many Canadian women wanting midwifery care are unable to access it. The degree program will be offered through Mount Royal College in Calgary, Alberta.

Canadian midwives are required to obtain a university-level degree in midwifery. In provinces where they are legally recognized, they attend births at the location the woman chooses (home or hospital or, if available, freestanding birth centers). For more information on midwifery in Canada, visit the Canadian Association of Midwives.
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Monday, March 30, 2009

Cesarean section and VBAC, again

Here are a few recent articles that are worth reading given recent discussions about VBACs, cesarean sections (elective or otherwise), and the ever-climbing cesarean rate.

The first is an excellent, thorough article in The Poughkeepsie Journal covering the trend to perform cesareans more and more often: Birth by Surgery: The Skyrocketing Cesarean Rate. The author did quite well in covering the salient issues in depth. The article begins with the story of a woman who had an "elective" cesarean for a large baby that turned out to be 2 1/2 lbs lighter than the ultrasound estimate:

Two weeks before Kristi Ashley gave birth to a son in 2007, an ultrasound exam estimated the baby at a hefty 12 pounds, 10 ounces — too big, her doctor believed, for a safe vaginal delivery. After the child weighed in at 9 pounds, 4 ounces in the delivery room, Ashley came to believe that the planned cesarean section she had, with its attendant pain, long recovery and what she called "emotional damage," may have been a rush to judgment.

"It's very hard to go up against your physician, especially at the 12th hour," said Ashley, 38, of Hopewell Junction. "I think doctors are very quick these days to get scared. They would rather opt for the surgical solution."

Determined to avoid another surgical birth and aided by a supportive doctor, hospital and birthing coach, Ashley last month did something that has become increasingly rare for post-cesarean women today: She gave birth vaginally, to another son.

In an era of soaring malpractice premiums, technology that sometimes sets off false alarms, physicians pressed for time and mothers-to-be conflicted by fear, cesarean-section birth is soaring to its highest levels ever. Read the rest of the article here.

The next article by the same author, Modern medicine increasingly intervenes in the birth process, discusses many of the same issues, in addition to the increasing medicalization of childbirth.
In the decade through 2002, something momentous happened to babies in the wombs of American women, especially white women. The average time fetuses spent there decreased from 40 weeks to 39.

The decline, reported in a 2006 study in the medical journal Seminars in Perinatology, appears to have little to do with nature.

Instead, earlier births may be the outcome of “increased use of induction (of labor) and other obstetric interventions such as cesarean delivery,” said a January report by the U.S. Centers for Disease Control. Prematurity rose 20 percent since 1990, the report said, and the rate of low birth-weight babies hit a 40-year high.

“We are shortening the gestational age,” said Dr. Carol Sakala, program director for the research and advocacy group Childbirth Connection. “That is a big interference with mammalian evolution, human evolution.”

Researchers, midwives, birth coaches and mothers point to such data as symptoms of a flawed system of birthing in America, one they say over-manages, over-medicates and over-monitors labor and delivery, often leading to unnecessary cesarean-section births. Read the rest of the article here.

The last article is a glimmer of hope amidst the gloom of our contemporary obstetrical culture. In C-section births fall, one hospital has lowered its cesarean rate (18% last year, usually around 16%). Some of the key practices the hospital has adopted are taking a midwifery approach to childbearing with a focus on facilitating spontaneous, natural births, minimizing the routine use of technology and interventions, and offering and encouraging VBACs.

While more and more women choose to undergo Cesarean section births despite a national push by the federal government to decrease the number, the local rate has declined and is well below the state average.

North Adams Regional Hospital performs significantly fewer c-sections than other hospitals around the state — an average of 18 percent of all births at the hospital compared to the state average of 34 percent, according to reports released by the state Department of Public Health.

The hospital also has a better prenatal care record, according to the reports: 94 percent of women giving birth have had nine or more prenatal care visits versus the state average of 87 percent having that many visits.

"I think what is being reflected in our numbers is that we are taking a more 'midwifery' approach with our practice then before," Robin Rivinus, a certified nurse midwife with Northern Berkshire Obstetrics & Gynecology at the hospital, said last week. "It means that we do fewer unnecessary interventions — inductions, Cesarean sections, episiotomies. We treat childbirth as the normal, natural thing that it is. We only step in when it's medically necessary, which is much better for both the mother and the baby." Read the rest of the article here.

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Belly shot: 35 weeks pregnant

35.2 weeks from LMP. After my sleepless night a few days back, I decided I needed something to pick me up, so I got my hair cut. I was trying to recreate the original hair cut from a few months ago and it's close, but not quite the same. Still not bad, though.
I finally found a family doctor in town and he's only 1 1/2 blocks away, right next door to the dentist's office and video rental store. I brought Zari in today for a meet & greet and to ask him about selective/delayed vaccinations. Zari hasn't had any yet and I'm still trying to figure out what, if any, I will give her. He was upfront that he strongly supports vaccinating, but respectful of whatever I wanted to do. So he said to do some reading & research and let him know my plan at our next visit.

I'd like to check out Dr. Sears' Vaccine Book. I find that the literature on vaccinations is usually either so rabidly pro or against that they both turn me off and make me skeptical. There are some I most likely will not do (chicken pox, Hepatitis B) and several that I'm on the fence about (MMR, DTaP, polio). Rubella, for example, is something to be concerned about when a woman enters childbearing age. At that point, it would be prudent to run an antibody titer and, if it's negative, accept the vaccine before trying to get pregnant. We don't live on a farm or near livestock so tetanus is quite unlikely to be an issue. Hmmmm...

I also gave him a prescription request from the CNM I'm seeing. In my state, there's a loophole that doesn't allow independently practicing CNMs to write prescriptions for certain pharmaceuticals (things such as antihemorrhagic meds like Pitocin & methergine & cytotec, abx for GBS+ moms, lidocaine for suturing, etc). She carries these medications with her but technically/legally can't administer them without a prescription signed by a physician. It can be any licensed physician in our state--even a dentist (but unfortunately not a chiropractor, otherwise I know one who most likely would sign it). He said he'd look over the request, consult with his OB colleagues, and get back to me. I hope it won't be a problem.
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Sunday, March 29, 2009

Ethics of refusing to perform elective cesareans

A few recent posts by Mom's Tinfoil Hat--Reply turned post, three way mirror style and
Reply turned post, tired-of-pushing style--got me thinking about the ethics of refusing to do a non-medically indicated cesarean section. If a woman requests to have a c-section with no medical reason, are physicians justified in refusing to perform one? Does refusal or promotion of elective cesarean section (ECS) have ethical implications for other birth choices, such as VBAC or homebirth? Is ECS a "choice" that is an essential part of women's reproductive rights? If a physician defends a woman's right to choose ECS, should he/she also be obliged to defend her right to choose homebirth, waterbirth, etc? Is it ethically/morally justifiable to refuse a woman an ECS but to argue that VBACs should not be banned?

Here's how I see the issue: Refusing to perform a non-medically indicated cesarean is ethically justifiable. Refusing to allow VBAC is not. What's the difference between the two situations?

1) Elective cesarean section is a medical procedure that cannot happen without the physicians and staff to perform it. On the other hand, a vaginal birth after cesarean is not a medical procedure, but rather the spontaneous and inevitable conclusion of pregnancy. It will occur whether or not there is someone doing something.

2) As I understand it, patients have the legal right to informed consent, which includes the right to decline/refuse medical treatment and to bodily autonomy* (provided they are in a state to make competent decisions). Patients do not have the legal right to demand medically unnecessary procedures; they only have the right to decline procedures that are offered/indicated. Refusing to perform an ECS does not violate a patient's right to informed consent and refusal. If a physician feels that there is no good reason to perform a cesarean section (or any other medical procedure), they can refuse to do it and/or refer the patient to another care provider. However, banning VBACs does violate a woman's legal rights, in that it does not allow the woman to refuse a repeat cesarean section.

What are your thoughts on this issue?

* For additional reading on this topic, see:
The Right to Refuse Treatment: Ethical Considerations for the Competent Patient in the Canadian Medical Association Journal
The NHS' explanantion of the right to refuse treatment
Informed Consent and the Right to Refuse Treatment by Valerie Goodwin Larcombe, Esq.

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