I want to have a midwife available for these main reasons:
- assess for tears and suture/Dermabond if necessary
- do my Rh- bloodwork and write a Rx for Rhogam if needed
- assist in the case of a shoulder dystocia or rapid postpartum hemorrhage
One thing I think I would really like about choosing her is that she does group prenatals. All the women due around the same time meet together once a month for two hours (then once every 2 weeks after 36 weeks). The midwife or one of her assistants has a discussion topic or presentation. There's time to chat and to have one-on-one visits with the midwife, too. I feel fairly isolated here, having moved recently and having no friends nearby. This would give me some much-needed socialization and birth talk!
For the moment I am leaning towards going with her and staying open to what I feel is right on a spiritual and intuitive level. It is, admittedly, a little bit strange to be looking into midwives after having done it unassisted. It's not that I worry about my ability to give birth or to recognize and address situations in labor. I also don't want emotional support or coaching during labor. I just want more options at my disposal. I think, also, that I feel a bit more fear this time around. Not about the birth or anything; just in general, knowing how much I love Zari and, as a mother, how much I have to lose (as well as gain).
So that's where I stand at the moment. My pregnancy is going very smoothly. I started feeling better about four weeks ago; the dizziness and queasiness gradually subsided and now I feel totally normal again. And food tastes good again! How lovely...I lost a few pounds since becoming pregnant, although that might be as much related to my exercising regularly since I got back from France as to my lack of appetite. Plus those pounds aren't really "lost" since they were "gained" back after I ran a half-marathon last fall (not immediately after the race, of course, but over the course of the winter since I stopped running after I accomplished my goal and--lame excuse?--I don't enjoy running in cold weather). I am almost 3 months along at this point and look forward to all of the fun parts that are coming: feeling the baby move, finding the heartbeat with the fetoscope, watching my belly grow.